After 13 weeks (a bit more
than 3 months) wearing the hard collar all day and night long, like it was a
part of my body, I don’t need it anymore. I only have to wear it in the car now
for another 5 weeks. Outside the car I’m collar-free!
It has been a long long long
time, the 6th of March when I hurt myself seems like ages ago. After
2 CTIs, 1 MRI, various x-rays and lots of visits to the doctors, I am really
exhausted, psychologically that is… I’ve had so much insecurity with my neck,
if it’s sticking together properly, what’s going to happen with it, will I ever
be normal again etc etc… I’ve been in the house most of these 3 months, just
been out for visits to the doctors and maybe five or six times to see friends…
It’s amazing when I think about how these 13 weeks went by… Thank god I didn’t
go nuts!
Life goes on; I have a new
collar bone now, just 3 months old. Have to take care of it and be really
careful for another 2 months or so, until the new bone grows stronger. And then
I can return to my normal life… I am really happy to say that, not a lot of
people have the privilege to return to their normal lives and do all the things
they did before after such a serious accident… Just thinking of it sometimes
gives me the creeps.
I wish I could go in the water
immediately and get all over this psychological shock I have been through, but
I can’t… I have to be a little more patient and work with my neck muscles so
they can get strong first, since they have been immobilized for 3 months and
cannot support the bone, which is also still sensitive. Patience is a virtue,
they say, and I have made good use of this lesson. For sure I can handle this
to the end…
I can’t do much exercise yet
and for sure I cannot lift weights for a while longer, but it is what it is and
I can just be happy living without the hard collar for a start, and trying to
look behind me –what I cannot do yet because of the anchylosis in my neck- :) .
